She made it!

Senioritis

God in heaven help us, she has got it BAD. She is behind in all of her classes, but particularly AP Psych. It doesn't look good, and Psychology is her chosen college major! If anyone at all out there actually reads my blog, it sure would be nice to get some feedback!

NDHS Senior Prom 2011

And the winner is...UCI

University of California Irvine. Unless we can't afford it. And then it will be University of California Riverside. The good things about UCI are they are in the top ten schools for psychology and in the top 100 universities in America. The good thing about UCR is it is also in the top 100 schools in America. It's all going to come down to money. Sigh. It shouldn't be that way but it is. She has a week to decide.

Oh, prom was last weekend! She looked beautiful. The theatre guild kids all went together in a group. It was great! I'll try to post a photo :D

College Applications

BLAH! That's all I have to say. BLAH! I've been depressed, and I haven't been helping Emily apply like I would have liked. Now, even though we overnighted the application to Brown, it is technically arriving AFTER the deadline. We can only hope for grace. I will start on the financial aid application. Being depressed is like swimming through mud. It really hurts. I KNOW it is HER responsibility to have met the deadline, but I feel like shit because I didn't help her do that. BLAH! Brown/RISD Dual Degree Program. It's the DREAM school. It's the stretch. It can't NOT happen just because she is LATE! BLAH! I think I'll open my mail. I'm about 2 weeks behind on that. Life is SO HARD when you are depressed.

Crossroads

Well, it's official. We're not reading the book together anymore. I'm stricken. It doesn't "resonate" with her. And not only that, we "don't talk anymore since Shannon's accident." (That was five years ago now.) She said the book "doesn't resonate" with her. (The book being "I'll Miss You Too" about going off to college). So she is willing to still have 10 minutes a day with me working on our relationship and feelings, but I feel so unstructured. I wanted to use the book to focus our conversations on how our lives were going to change with her going off to college. On top of all of that, my HUSBAND got not one, TWO camera tickets for blowing red lights...at the same intersection, ON THE SAME DAY! Life is just TOO hard sometimes.

Reluctance

I haven't written in awhile - I had asked Emily to read the book with me and it isn't happening. That's because I was leaving it up to her to read. Right. So I will remind her daily. I'm only asking for 10 minutes a day. It is November, and it is the month of heavy rehearsals for the musical. She is Rapunzel in "Into the Woods." Her dad is playing flute and piccolo in the pit, so ... besides being a theater widow, she has this very special experience to remember from her senior year with her dad. I am jealous. BUT she wants me to paint a painting for her. Our song is "Walking on Sunshine." She wants me to paint sunshine. I have NO idea yet for a composition. I may buy the song on i-tunes for inspiration. I have asked her to paint WITH me, so we, too, can have a special senior year experience. I should have her paint HER version of sunshine! I'm liking this.

We went (Emily her dad and I) to see the campus of University of California San Diego. I will write more about that later - it is her second choice, and it was a good experience!